merry fuckin christmas (She was only on vacation)

life is nothing without an enemy to thrash against
but don’t quote me on that, i often claim to be a better person
than i am and im sticking to it
so this is christmas when i used to throw fits
way back when i was only twenty six
and bribed my best friend back down to peru
so i could beat the shit out of her, too.
claiming it was a tradition
and come on, lets try it.
she won, i didn’t.
we had a fight instead of presents.

so this is christmas when i left him
and never trusted anyone again
so this is christmas when my mother
went missing, but actually we found out later
she was only on vacation

so this is christmas
when i realize i could never have a child
because i still don’t know what love is
exactly or at all or anything

so this is a coming of age story
and that age is almost thirty
and so this is christmas,
somebody shoot me.

4 thoughts on “merry fuckin christmas (She was only on vacation)

  1. Ah, no, nobody will be shooting anybody! I feel for you in this. Seems lousy shit happens around these holidays. I share in your feelings, without the shoot me part. So pull your panties up and be the heroic girl you have been since I met you! I’m with you. (“way back when I was 26…” lol)

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