The First Therapy Session is Always the Same

My introduction always takes 50 minutes
I say, “Hi, my name is ______
and this is how my life happened.”

The doctors always say the same thing
“Oh, my, that’s….fascinating.”

and it is. My mental illness
has followed me
from mountains to shamans
through difficult governments
and unexpected friendships

and wait till i tell you
when the nightmares started
and what ive done about it

but then, that’s all the time
we have for this session.
it’ll be the 20th
before I can see her again
before we can even work on
any of my problems.

11 thoughts on “The First Therapy Session is Always the Same

  1. I hate that shit. And, after that, she’ll go on vacation so, it will be another two weeks. Then, you’ll have a good three weeks in a row of meetings, but then, she’ll have some sort of surgery and be out for four weeks again and then, it’s the fucking holly dayz and by the time you’re sitting in session six or seven and finally feel comfortable enough to tell her you do “blah blah blah” to cope, or you’ve murdered X many people in your head, it’s 2018.

    It takes FOREVER, doesn’t it???

    But, good luck. 😊

    I’m glad you’re doing it.

  2. having sat on both sides of that conversation, there are seldom good ways to tell the whole story. Recently I felt like I would have to talk nonstop for about a month to tell mine, and NOONE is going to sit still for that. So, I have been telling it in all sorts of piecemeal parentheticals with asides and notes out loud about how I am sidetracking or talking too fast or whatever….. luckily, I found someone who rolls with that and doesn’t get annoyed…..
    hopefully you develop comfort and she is helpful to you πŸ™‚

    1. I know you’ve sat in both seats, im always hoping youll weigh in on my extensive collection of therapy poems πŸ™‚ ❀

      1. I need to take some time and go through the old ones. Therapists are like everything. Some are fabulous, some suck and most are somewhere in the middle. The trick is figuring out who is who and getting what you need.πŸ˜‰

  3. I think too that the therapist/client relationship is also a matter of chemistry. There are perfectly good therapists out there who are just not the right match. I am a tough client and last fall was assigned a trainee (I MAY have a reputation of eating trainees for breakfast :-)) I ended up leaving and going with someone who was closer to me age, had a lot more experience with PTSD, didn’t fluster easily and had a lot of respect for my survival rather than viewing me as damaged. The fit is important

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