Refusal

i cant go swimming
alone in the ocean anymore
i have too great a tendency
to get pulled in
by all sorts of undertow

and i know this
from almost drowning
several times over
so i just dont go
swimming alone
in the ocean
anymore

i won’t end up
floundering

7 thoughts on “Refusal

  1. This makes me sad for you. The ocean, alone, is the only way I want it. If others are around, they mess up my experience with that amazing thing.

    Just go to a beach with lifeguards and maybe wear some “swimmies” or something. I bet you’ll come back alive.

      1. God damnit. This is why I failed my English B.A. Degree.

        But still… lifeguards?

        And yes, being self aware of the things you can’t do is nice as well.

        I’m right there with you…

        I’m in my ocean right now, with no lifeguards, swimmies, or rafts. And, I think the sharks are approaching. I still have time and the energy to make it back to shore. I dunno if I will.

        I like your writing.

    1. and ptsd, there are certain things i just have to avoid because they’re more dangerous for me

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