Paper Flower

i gave up in the middle
of a trek across the country
i said to him, in public
where he couldn’t force me
“i quit.”

and I sat down
on a stone wall
in protest

he went away
and came back
with a paper flower
for me to hold and look at

wordlessly
i started walking again
he said i know
how your little mind works
and i can fix it

he called it little
even after he saw
the mines exploding
across the field

even after
i woke up screaming
his name
to stop it
he held me
and said honey
i wont hurt you again
dont worry

but my mind was expansive
and i remembered
his promises
even after he
forgot them again

when i was really
finished
i ran across
the field
there were no
dandelions
only mines
exploding

i made sure
he couldn’t
cross it

even for me
it was injurious
even today
i still keep running
but finally being finished
was the opposite of quitting
it meant a drive to live

even when the field
becomes enormous,
and i wish
i was little
like the paper flower
the portrait he painted
even if the mines
keep exploding

i know i can dodge them

6 thoughts on “Paper Flower

  1. Phenomenal.
    I love this word, and the first word that came to mind. (In Stephen Colbert’s voice when he was singing it to Eminem.)
    Wow. This piece just gets in. Amazing.

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