Last night she called me crazy. This morning she reminded me that she still loves me

I’m staying! I’m staying!
I have these good friends
we’re going to go camping!
I feel ok again!

last night she chuckled
“You’re so crazy.”
“Woah,” I said,
“Did you just use the c-word on me?”

I ran back to my therapist
and asked her, “How sick?
I’ve been avoiding
all these things for months
and now that I have answers,
they dont stick.”

She said, “It’s completely natural
to have conflicting feelings.
You’re not bipolar.
you don’t have that disorder.
You gave up for awhile
and now you’re trying.
That can be
very confusing.”

“But do i have the other thing?”

“Post traumatic stress?
Yes, you have it.
But that’s not why you’re crazy.
You’re just…
a little different.
It’s endearing.”

Ok, so I’m not too embarrassed
to live.
im leaving a bad situation
but im staying
those are two different things.

my friend says im like a ball
ricocheting
she calls me insane
but she is still there
at the end of the day

im ok im ok im ok

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