I just realized I haven’t had a real boyfriend in five years
not since i left the country in fear.
The psychic said the guy you’ve been sleeping with
is definitely married, you might not even be his only affair.
she was sympathetic. she said i deserve better.
i said i really dont even care.
it wasn’t until i did the numbers
that i wept all these tears.
i cant let men near me
i dont think theres anything
left of me
thats why i think
i should at least get to have a puppy.
especially since twice a week,
i have to go through therapy.
im surrounded by people
but im still really lonely.