im reliving all the recent wrongs
im lost in thought
i think about that run in with the cops
i think about that night with todd
while some guy is saying
i didnt have sex with you
because i try not to be a rapist
in most situations.
i try very hard not to do it
i say oh, ok. Thanks.
i remember when that didnt happen
i remember what i can remember about it
and i understand the panic attacks
the pain, i tell my therapist about it
and she ups my medication.
she says my anxiety is extreme.
maybe this will help me
change the way im living.