I can’t see anything good and im spinning

i dont feel like ice cream, i feel like crisis intervention

but if i miss my rent, i know ill try to commit suicide again

i cant go home, and i cant leave this apartment

So, I’ll be reporting into work in the morning

and ill keep doing this for years and years

until finally, it comes naturally, and i just stop breathing

7 thoughts on “

  1. Sounds like you’re, just going through the motions from day to day, without really, living, and that, is how we all get sometimes, we get too used to our routines, that we’d become, maladjusted, thinking that this is the correct way to live our lives, when what we’re in need of, is a huge change…

    1. i do have an interview as an arborist from a desk job…big risk, im not exactly financially secure and im kind of afraid of heights. ive only been at the desk job 5 months. but im going. im not happy

  2. For some reason, I liked the original version that I got in my email just a tiny better…. but, what do I know. All your words are beautiful and thoughtful. Thank you for sharing them with us. I understand that these are gifts to us, from you.

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